In her TEDMED 2015 performance, cardiologist and singer-songwriter Suzie Brown and her husband, Scot Sax, give a vulnerable, evocative performance that tugs at our heartstrings. We caught up with Suzie to learn more about the delicate balance between pursuing her musical passions and practicing cardiology.
TEDMED: Can you tell us more about the fine line between exposing your outside life to your patients, being vulnerable with them, and maintaining the level of expertise, stoicism, competence, and objectivity that is expected when playing the role of a doctor?
SUZIE: It IS a fine line. When I am at the hospital, I am 100% dedicated to my patients and I would never want there to be any question about that. For that reason, I generally do not volunteer that I’m a musician, or even that I work part time. Once I have established a more long term relationship, and my commitment to them and competence as their physician has come across, I find it easier to talk about (but I still don’t bring it up). I hope that they feel it on some level though, in that I am more vulnerable and empathetic than I would be otherwise.
TEDMED: How do you balance the medical professional side and musical sides of your life?
SUZIE: It’s not easy. And it’s become even more complicated now that I have kids. My schedule currently alternates between 2 weeks working as a doctor and two weeks “off” from medicine, which is my time for music. After my two doctor weeks, I’m usually exhausted, and I’m always missing my family like crazy. I need to physically and mentally recharge before I’m able to be creative, which takes time. I can’t wait to spend time with my husband and daughters after being away so much at work. In between family and recharging time, I squeeze in my creative time. These days that mostly consists of songwriting with other artists in Nashville, though I still play shows and make albums. Inevitably, the two weeks “off” goes by in a flash. I often wish I had more music time, though I’m SO grateful for the time that I do have.
TEDMED: Do you think the fact that you’re a musician makes you a better doctor?
SUZIE: Definitely. Having time for music allows me to recharge, to replete my emotional reserve, so I have more to give to my patients. It also allows me to access my feelings and maintain a healthy amount of vulnerability – without time away, it’s easy to shut down emotionally, just to get by.
Download the song from Suzie’s TEDMED 2015 performance, “Sometimes Your Dreams Find You,” for free here!